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has been on the ground do not think it is people who once lived on.
she was alive, we do not know; she died, we still do not know.
and off into our line of sight, ears and the mind is the rumor about her Ruoyouruowu, her life experience, her suffering, her love, her pathos, she's tired, her loneliness, her aloof, and people like her No tears to cry like the text spell fragments.
1995 9 8 morning, Los Angeles apartment of a lonely old age deeply terrifying scream came suddenly give. This is the care of this screaming Black Bite Si apartment, on the fourth floor apartment in this sense of responsibility feel strong Bite Si old woman in the room not seen for many days out, vaguely uneasy. He knocked on the door, gently cry forward, but the house has been quiet, like a tomb.
end, Bite Si Jiaoren opened the door, appeared in front of the strange scene: Housing the center covered with a red carpet, a finer lines very elegant old woman lay carpet central, she quietly fell asleep and never wake up the call.
who heard the police, after an autopsy proved that: the old woman actually died three days.
He Benitez, after hearing this news, he could not help, then sent screaming so sad in Los Angeles, which, like screaming waves across the Pacific, spread throughout the world, many cities have been the repressed screaming pain program.
this old woman is talented woman Kuangshi Zhang.
Ailing certainly do not want to issue such a terrible scream Bite Si. She has grown used to the silent days, accustomed to solitude and loneliness, she only want to sleep quietly, quietly sitting in heaven, the sun dipped, like beads full of spirituality written text.
people remember this resume: Zhang Ying, September 30, 1920 Born in Shanghai Ailing .1943 .1930 changed its name, the published .1956 met playwright Alice Lai in the same year in August, married in New York with Alice Lai Alice Lai .1967 died in 1973, lives in Los Angeles. Two years later, complete English translation of the Qing Dynasty novel died in Los Angeles apartment in September, at the age of seventy-year-old.
Ailing finish this way her whole life. She said: Life is dressed in beautiful gowns, covered with lice. So, at the last moment, She pushed hard and climbed the middle of gorgeous gown is to get rid of those annoying lice or lice in the Queen to be?
Sadly, when I heard the death of Eileen Chang returned to Beijing, the Mainland literature The first reaction of many people turned out to be: how, Eileen original is still alive? 1982, a University of California students studying in the mainland first read He was astounded: Zhang Ailing is not dead for a long time Why?
in the Hong Kong media, which can see the last photo of Zhang Ailing, is published in Kim Il Sung goes sudden death of her hand holding the newspaper news photo, she paid too solemn and awkward. This photo was taken in 1994, the day passed away from her less than three hundred days of the time. on the previous year, she also done a cosmetic surgery and wear contact lenses.
Ailing U.S. dedication, respect and love, your spirit is really soul-stirring ah.
finally, the beauty, respect the United States, for the United States, the United States to recover the people quietly left, this no noise, drifting over the water beautiful nature in general quietly away, with no attachment of desolation, but she left the heavy text is that no one can erase and can not be ignored.
Zhang left a will, is very simple, only two points. s First, pass away, all property will be donated to Mr. Song Qi couple; Second, I hope to immediately cremated, not funeral ceremonies, such as land, no one will be the ashes thrown into the place of any expansive.
general funeral arrangements principles are: privacy, quick and easy.
Ailing know: no matter how beautiful people, once dead, are not pretty. So, she immediately cremated, the remains should not be seen.
friends to achieve her wishes. Since her death to cremation, in addition to the landlord, the police, Bite Si, executors and funeral home staff, no one saw her remains, and no license had phase, and, in addition to the provisions of procedures require the time, but without any delay.
her to bring her ashes thrown into the deserted place. This last wish is also done.
Despite leading a difficult life, but not to reject life. In the seventies four years of ups and downs, she Masquerade not pass away, and not count on dedicated, responsible for their own choices, be responsible for life. She made her seriously should be done, seriously do not want to refuse to not like her thing. When God calls her to leave, she quietly got up and away.
because this world, she has already nostalgic mood.
attachment are those alive who quietly read her have a feeling hh
called the pain, because she's gone, people feeling;
there is a treasure called love because she's gone, people remember;
have an attitude called respect, because she's gone, people understand.
Second, love, in that distant spring evening
Zhang nobility. Her grandfather is the famous Zhang Peilun, her grandmother was the daughter of Li is more famous. It is said that marriage can be described as grandfather and grandmother marriage made in heaven, a time for the elephants. But as this story of love crystal, the amount of Eileen Chang's father, Ting-quite live up to expectations, tainted with all the bad young man's habits, smoking opium, a brothel everything dry. Strangely, Ting-Yan Fu is not the amount of light He married Eileen Chang's mother, Huang Yi Fan, this is a very beautiful and fashionable women, the pursuit of individual liberation, by the , in Zhang Ailing 4 years old, not the amount of advice Guzhang Ting, Tong Fu and Zhang Ailing Zhang Maoyuan aunt went to Europe to study.
soon, has twice served as Prime Minister of the Republic of China Sun Baoqi of women married to Ting-Fan Sun the amount of use. Chang and stepmother relations have been tense. once even had he hit the stepmother of a slap in the face. This fight will be her last trace of nostalgia in this family are also destroyed. Soon, her father was beaten and kept in half of the room.
Ailing age girls rebel, sensitive, depressed. She always miss their mother, and has been kept in touch with the mother. For example, mother skiing in the Swiss Alps photo will be returned to her. mother was into the art school in Europe, in 1948 she taught school in Malaysia, half of the book overseas. She likes oil painting, with Xu, and so we are all familiar with micro Jiangbi. Pearl Harbor after her flight from Singapore to India, President of India, Jawaharlal Nehru once did the secretary of two sisters.
bravely escaped from the family of Zhang Ailing. She should be like mother like that, individuality and freedom to live. She dared to commit, even in the face of his grandmother . For example, her grandmother wrote a poem like his grandfather, everyone says that good. only she did not agree that poorly written. It is said that the U.S. can destroy a writer who can write a good novel.
Zhang is such a person.
Not only that, but also look to spread the tabloids Zhang actually see the cloud in which the swearing, she scolded while laughing, not care about other people's eyes. The most interesting is that doing , she looked confidently. a Lu-yu grab her handbag a small bum, do not fight for a moment taken away, after Zhang dislodge a small bum guy also accused Once again, a small fry bread grab her little hand, Zhang Ailing uncompromising as a result, half of the floor, she was still in his hand half. She took a bite, will the rest of the small steamed back toward the small fry of the ferocious to throw to.
but this is not to say there is no compassion Zhang Ailing. Her work is built on compassion. time, she moved the book printed on newsprint back to the apartment door to pay the driver a small amount, she feel very ashamed and afraid, would rather give some money toward that driver hands of a plug, and hastened upstairs to escape, and even dare watch the driver's face. She can imagine the face of the driver goes on wet sweat.
Zhang strong sense of independence, always the same as the knife cut is clear, never muddy. She loves money, because this money is earned themselves through sweat. She is a person who likes publicity. a beautiful flower, and if no one see what is called beautiful? a valuable painting on the wall, if no one is watching, what is called luxury? one to a friend's house and saw a lot of valuable things, friends, any of its silence, without the slightest intention hi , Chang went out, and said: beauty, more of a conscious, a kind of pursuit. that was in her little girl, she had a word out in the newspaper, got five dollars. Great people say this is the first time royalties, The dictionary should buy a souvenir, but she immediately took the money to buy a lipstick.
Ailing born to write home. She has a fourteen-year-old that Qin Zhong and intelligent child begins to run away train, Hangzhou, free love, got married, but economic difficulties, anger and sadness, while the later is a gem and Zhongzi Mei Jia Mu brought to the West Lake to see water sports, eat ice cream hh
Hu Lancheng shocked after reading that she write yearning and longing, like the United States. Ailing whole life to pursue, but got injured but it is a ray of moonlight.
love, hurt her; love, but also created her.
Zhang wrote before his debut Little Man, the title is called fifteen-year-old, however it is spring evening, she stood by the back door, hands resting on a peach tree. She remembered that she was wearing a pale blue tunic. who lived across the young people met with her, but never greeted, and he came over, not far away, stood still, and gently said loudly: What, stood for a while, each walked away.
so would be finished.
later the woman was Qinjuan Shui, and sold outside the county to Zuoqie afar, but also a few three-gu was sold, after countless breathtaking storm, old, when she still remembered that one thing and often spoke in the spring night, under a peach tree in the back door, the young man.
Among thousands of people to be met to meet you people, thousands of years, the time in the wilderness, neither earlier nor later step, you happen to meet, that's nothing else to say, only gently asked loudly: you are here? at the right time and place to meet the right man, and that moment will not change with the passage of time, but increasingly clear. When the time is old, the world's people still remember the sound of gentle questioning.
Needless to say , she loves him, but hindsight; Needless to say, she loves him, only to have experienced it can understand a lot of controversy; Needless to say, she loves him, just remember that love is more suitable.
This story was like a small razor love, accidentally leaked a mystery.
wrote this poem was this: / She swept the hundred and sixty days of falling / has not picked up a / fate / / Eileen Chang, the original you were here? / Ping does not matter and water could have been the fate of the / only chance, and got the same kind of moonlight .
Oh, and the lonely fight Ailing, a little old for you filled with love, in that distant spring evening, quietly starting your pen, you use it a hundred thousand Jiao Mei text mm
fondly told people at the right time to meet the person, is a fate;
at the right time to meet the wrong people, is a misfortune;
met at the wrong time the right people, is a helpless;
at the wrong time to meet the wrong people, is cruel.
three water intentionally, Fallen flowers relentless
Clearly, the wrong time in the case of Zhang Ailing to the wrong person, this person is Hulan Cheng.
Playboy Hulan Cheng, former Peace Movement Wang Why, read Hulan Cheng, always reminds me of the father of Zhang Ting-volume. What day does not Youcai, ah, how good can come across two such Zhang irresponsible men!
as their father, Zhang did not freedom of choice. However, as her husband, but to see Zouliao Yan Zhang. And eyes that see, the tragedy of her life is doomed.
Some years ago, Taiwan writer San Mao Zeng Yi Zhang, Hu-based adaptation of Love into the film Results wound Zaisa crazy handful of salt?
Hu Lancheng not around to write this off Zhang.
Some scholars believe the name Hulan Cheng the most easy to think of Non-road, non-Buddhist, and Calvin, also know, has the Buddha; put him on the ; local , but did not say anything mean.
spirituality in culture, rhetoric accomplished on the eyes of Zhang Hu Lancheng system is always high benchmark. he wrote while in exile in the divorce, and thought is the In all fairness, though Hu Lancheng heart operation, when the police see the essence of view, clear diction and syntax but also draws simple, but its narrative tricks, vision and reading people, pull off in front and from the do not want to mention him. They have had about the story, she said this was her name out of their talent without goods to sell have a deeper understanding of the personality and expressed deep contempt.
Hulan Cheng Zhang repeatedly to write, but she never replies, heart cold as ice, from This can be seen.
is the so-called willing junction. but in the end, they have to face While this bitter fruit.
At first, it was a so many memorable days ah Romantic.
read Hulan Cheng Zhang, published in The novel abrupt first met. Hulan Cheng saw Ailing, speak, and he thought completely wrong. Zhang came in the living room, Hulan Cheng who feel too much of her, sitting there, a bit naive poor taste. If a woman said she was students, but even the mature female students have not. He even afraid of her poor life, and thought, intellectuals had suffered during the war, but she did not make Hulan Cheng when she was a writer.
the day they talked about what seems to be insignificant. It is important, although the two time-consuming that many, but still feel that time flies.
Ailing sent away that day, the Hulan Cheng actually ventured to say: , how can? that men and women Huan Yue, a similar dance, like a bucket. to see the Ailing, he realized that he found an ideal opponent. bid farewell to Zhang, the Hulan Cheng and can not wait to sent a letter to her, the letter said she was not have lived on the ground who, but a myth. how her mind is so intelligent? how her words can be so scorching musculoskeletal?
did not expect to see three or four back before Hulan Cheng , Zhang suddenly very troubled and sad. woman who once loved, is there such a grievance. It seems, leaving it to injection Zhang shy arrows of love of life.
week later, because talking about Hulan Cheng Teng In the is a joy, from dust to bloom.
Zhang shot it into quatrains.
Hu Lancheng too proud, very satisfied: , this is the weight, but not responsibility. I Juyi not very Acacia has only become love song tsunami. Every time back to Shanghai, less than at home, but first look at the Ailing, entering a room, say, l I'm back r. I actually had to be sentimental. many girlfriends, and even rely on prostitution for fun, she would not be jealous. According to Hu Lancheng saying, ;
Hulan Cheng Zhang is a mirror for.
example, once, Hulan Cheng in Hong Kong, bought a recording of Beethoven, one does not like it, but secretly think that Beethoven was revered as St fifteen.
Hu Lancheng pending proud, but, simply did not like the piano Zhang said.
remark that Hulan Cheng Shuangranruoshi Dayton.
in the two exchanges, Zhang brought Hu Lancheng is a new feeling of women. She does not contrived, not hide, do not cater to. For example, when everyone said that did not compare the two novels, . She insisted on his views, will not be a rush of people Geku accompany, because her heart is very clear.
Because of this, Hulan Cheng Zhang said the br> Eileen Chang started his love of the heart and soul of the Hulan Cheng, extreme tenderness she said: Tibet, a good box. How terrible.
often lost in love himself, Chang is very clear. She understood, although some people how good things are met dripping Nothing, it was like a silk dipped in the cheek fat, have an immediate opening infiltration messy muddled. Ailing mistake, she knows love confused, still passionately devoted to the greater of a confused confused.
marriage, like in the room door quietly Zhang Hu Lancheng spy, she wrote: A man sitting on the sofa, the room has the quiet deep powder Sands, the wind and rain outside, Lang, mountains and plains are today. written numerous of hi, ask his eyebrows with a finger, said: . your lips I like the vortex here. called the flowers, although day meet, also was actually a new friend, how to spend Jiao For language, you can not help but want to call her, but if really cried out, afraid to disturb the ten III.
love from their friend They know each other but unable to spend. This determined their final separation.
previously, they also talked about one day when chatting, couples come to their end of the world to fly, Hulan Cheng said: However, should a change of surname for the first two years were the future across the galaxy, although you also will I have to see. , End of the World to angle for me to hold your trick you. Evaluation: l flower shirt, the video off the pool r. meet, but to have physical intercourse. Otherwise, love is just a symbol, the situation is only a desert. so how can the love of roots, how can we bear fruit?
Hu Lancheng a man should not assume responsibility. he was such sophistry: , but it is still a golden boy and one beautiful woman. , he married Eileen Chang did not take long with a stone's throw went to Wenzhou, and soon with a beautiful woman called entangled. Zhang noted, the look Hulan Cheng, Hu Lancheng not happy that he's a good thing bad.
At first, no doubt Hulan Cheng Zhang have anything to do with the beautiful. However, one morning, in a hotel, Hulan Cheng Zhang leaning over the bed and talking, faint pain, but fighting back. After a child, beautiful here, Lan into a body to see her to tell uncomfortable. beautiful also quick to ask how the pain and said wait a minute a cup of tea at lunch and eat will be good. Ailing moment is melancholy, and my heart suddenly understand the relationship between beautiful and Hulan Cheng definitely unusual.
Nevertheless, Zhang show enough patience, she graciously praised the beautiful with the not painted. original, Zhang painted painted, only facial features that look beautiful, and her mouth, more and more like Hulan Cheng, and my heart throbbed for a moment, while uncomfortable. and Hulan Cheng Zhang gall to blame how not paint, and really sad too holy!
Ailing untimely, love at a wrong time.
Hu Lancheng only to beautiful, but also called self-esteem, Chang asked him to choose between her lover, even Hulan Cheng said: > Zhang tears suddenly flow out. she insisted, to make a choice immediately Hulan Cheng and Hu Lancheng first questioned: ;
how low the application of white, what a simple request. This question is a tear, but also a desperate.
Hu Lancheng silent, still refuses to make a choice. Ailing sigh, Road : overflowing with blood.
rain the next day, sent Hulan Cheng Zhang boat, and hurried back.
few days later, a letter from Shanghai, Zhang told Hulan Cheng: I was the one umbrella in the rain side of the ship, facing surging Wong, standing Tiqi long time. you do not have money, how do I have to save, Jinji know you're over there living, I have a plan of. At this point, see the Hulan Cheng Zhang, . and her br> IV, gorgeous gown covered with lice
Hu Lancheng decidedly left after Zhang became introverted up with her forbear, suffer, the loneliness, writing a. most of the time, she always head down, with a poignant sense of tragedy, the wilderness in the city walking alone, walking in the old moonlight. She is like an elephant caress request, poignant, tragic, crumbling.
Zhang lower the noble head, but not abandon myself to her bow from the cheap, but because, looking down you can think better, think better can be written better works. If the world is so cruel, so that only the genius of women endure endless hardship, she wants Why did God let her see this. She re-start, are looking for is a simple answer.
should be said, like any normal female, as is also the longing of Eileen Chang, and her lack of sex life from the beginning then caught up in a spirit of narcissism. Ironically, her boudoir Hulan Cheng joy of just stuck in the how do people not look like a couple. Why are married and Zhang, Hu Lancheng also kept entangled with another woman, and can enjoy adult sexual?
is Ailing lack of charm, not spoiled, or too sacred Zhang, Hu Lancheng possessed only look up to? < br> notes, writing year qiao Zhang Ailing, the desire of the sky: She tried to sit down in the quarter Ze side, the hand attached to his leg. again and again to force the quarter Ze: You touched the meat is not your brother, you No body does not know the disease is more than good ah hh this is simply a lioness roar extremely depressed ah!
It is said that Zhang love moving all directions, like the father type for Hu Lancheng old lover, he really did not know that the use of How to hold a position but Dreams of the passionate soul of a woman. One time, he and Zhang out tricycles, he could not put her anyway in her lap, and finally, a woman had to put ourselves in the thigh. libido transferred to a literary creation, writing an article flash of light work, so that has always been pretentious, and always regarded Zhang as a Eileen Chang's excellence and tall. In Hoi An River to just a clear. surprised Road, to the Buddha is also dead, Walker A. Master, it is your industry body, congratulations relief. I have seen here in Ailing own corpse of surprise. I am without her, and subsequently wrote not a years . She yet magnificent, extraordinary has a ground-breaking. she is entirely rational, reason to be like the math, it just so, could not theoretical logic, her Hengjue universal, then straighten as mathematics, and she's brilliant also like a mathematical infinity. I can not exactly place is exaggerated, accurate, thin places and poor enough so every correction from her. predecessors such as the transfer of band, said his wife, I was tuning it from the Ailing positive column.
, however, have some late lamented Hulan Cheng. Ailing floated away from Shanghai to Hong Kong, and finally drifted into a foreign country. Ailing Although fluent in English, but life is Westernization. but she does not like to study, she said, Her favorite was living in Shanghai. However, she eventually forced to remain in the United States, and married to a foreigner. ah destiny is really unfair.
in the sense of Zhang Ailing, the Westerners always have a barrier, like the moonlight a butterfly park in the back of the hand with a white glove, really every painfully uncomfortable. in Shanghai, one time she saw the apartment has two foreign boys take the elevator to get that level upstairs, but upstairs See the sun shortage shortage, even two foreign boys aphasia, only to hear one say
However, the terrible life she has to run through later life. 1955, Zhang immigrated to the United States in New England the following year she was a creative writing camp, met a thirties from Europe American writer Alice Lai-old immigrant (Ferdinand Reyher), the two fall in love, and married in New York in August.
Chang and Megan Lai babies, the fact of the Hulan Cheng is a great irony. and 65 Although the value of life year-old old man, but he but no longer make a return to his father. He said he could do the husband of Eileen Chang. Zhang immediately made out of innocent life, who became the Laiya Fu, but the mother never lost an opportunity.
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